I strongly believe in following your intuition. This year, for some reason, my intuition told me that I should audition for The Voice. After 10 seasons of being on the air, and even more years of me going on these crazy auditions, now was the time for me to try this out. Why now?
I know myself well enough now to understand that I don’t need to answer the question Why. The answer to that question will reveal itself if I identify, listen and act on my inner voice’s calling. When your inner voice speaks you must listen!
Stressing about your soul’s calling will ultimately push it away and give you more stress. That’s why we have to act! Luckily I was able to identify it on time and I acted. I knew something good would come out of this no matter the outcome.
I picked my audition city and song and here I am. As I write this I am sitting on a park bench at Centennial Park in Atlanta, Georgia. My audition is tomorrow at 11 AM only two blocks from where I stand now, and two blocks from my hotel.Yet, I feel a very strange feeling. It’s not nerves because at this point in life, I don’t get nervous anymore until 5min before showtime. It’s the adrenaline kicking in! I know I have no control over the outcome and I’m ok with destiny’s path for me. There is no fighting that.
However, for the short amount of time I’ve been on this adventure I realize that I miss my baby boy and my husband terribly. It only makes me think of the “what ifs” of the future and the question that I’ve asked myself a million times before… Am I really cut out for this life?
I have to admit that traveling “solo” sans baby in tow was great and so much easier! From the moment I arrived at the airport to the moment I made it to the gate it was 15min or less! A miracle! I flew alone, arrived at the hotel alone, walked around the city alone, ate alone and will go through it all again tomorrow, alone.
Being alone reminded me of the life of an artist. It also reminded me of the ease of how having a child will completely change your perspective on life’s priorities.
While my personal goals are still very important to me, and I still wish to build a company while still singing to some degree, I am thankful for this experience already because it has brought back the memories of the life of a traveling performer and maybr that’s not where I want to be now that I have my own family to take care of.
While I truly enjoy singing on stage, I like my sofa, my fluffy throw, and my snuggles with my boys way more than a stage adrenaline rush.
Regardless, I’m ready for whatever tomorrow may bring and I will never say never to The Voice. My inner voice, that is. :-)
… … I wrote the above post last Friday June 3rd. On Saturday, I went to the audition and gave it my all. I did not make it past the first audition though and it was all alright. I am happy I listened to my soul and went through this again because I learned so much. I’m grateful for the opportunity and for having a loving support team back home.
I encourage you to stay in tune with yourself and listen to what your body, mind and soul are telling you. You know yourself better than anyone else and you must develop and take care of YOU. You have the power to live a fabulous, freeing life but only if you allow yourself to welcome it.
Thanks so much for reading!